Hi guys this is the seventeenth part of my blog series The Diary Of A Teenager. If you haven’t read the previous parts …go ahead they are all here…
_________Twist in Tale________
You can always make and remake plans for yourself, but when you make plans for others you have to consider various factors. Life gave me ample of opportunities to learn business management in different ways. Helping Navjyot in his mission was one such free lesson. I had planned to surprise Aditi with bouquet of roses, a packet of heart shaped chocolates and a few good cards with some lifted poetry from the world wide web. What I forgot was that my client was a pauper! Due to financial crunches we (read I) were forced to redraft the plan and just settle for words…after all they were the only free thing available in plenty!
So for three days I gave her vague clues about the looks, feelings, the first time he saw her, and finally, a concocted story about a photograph of hers that he always keeps in his wallet. Girls love to dream about the mystery man who loves them. Everyday she tried to control her curiosity, her urge to ask more about the guy, but ended up asking more and more about the guy
My journey of life has never been through the smooth roads. I have always loved the twist and turns it threw in to disrupt my smooth ride. Just as all my moves were hitting the bulls-eye; suddenly the twist was thrown in again. The sight of the moon slowly faded, as I fell asleep thinking about the future moves about Aditi and Navjyot. I slowly crept into a dream I have been seeing since I first heard about love. In a beautiful moonlight night, I see my grown up self sitting at a table lit with scented candles. As I fill the glasses with red wine, a beautiful lady in a red dress with long hair takes the seat opposite mine. As I hold her hands and take the ring to propose her …..I see Aditi smiling in the red dress. The dream is suddenly broken by the loud ring on my land-phone.
“Hi, Navjyot here”
‘Huh! What happened anything urgent to call so late in the night?’ I asked.
“I think …I have a deeper crush for Kritika,” said Navjyot.
‘What? You nuts or what? You only told me you like Aditi…didn’t ya? Now what the hell happened suddenly? I was about to reveal about your feeling to her tomorrow. ’
The conversation continued, but everything seemed to have changed over night. On one side I was confused about the dream I had. Before that day, I had never seen the face of the girl in that dream. What I didn’t realize till then was that, from the past couple of weeks I have been thinking about Aditi more than I had ever even thought about Shalee. I fought myself. I even discussed it with my best friend, my sister. My sis finally made me realize that unconsciously I had a crush on her….I had developed feelings for Aditi or may be something more grave and serious.
The fact that I in the due course of my plan of developing her feelings towards Navjyot I had faltered and fell for her, made me more uncomfortable to sit with them. For once I thought to finish this all together, by telling her the truth. But things had messed up for me….this unnoticed feeling for her…didn’t allow me to tell her the truth; for I didn’t want to lose her forever.
I needed to divert my attention form Aditi and the best next option available (opportunity cost) was Sana. In the few weeks in school I had befriended Sana and her friend Ridhi. I started to spend more time with them and Navjyot started making efforts to woo Kritika. Thankfully, I played no role in his new venture. Aditi, me and Navjyot were still friends and used to chat at least once in a day…but our favorite topic- the mystery guy was never pulled in for a discussion. Navjyot in the mean time had become a very close friend of mine, in fact the best friend. I was immersed in deep thinking for many days and finally I decided to play by the moment. Since, Navjyot had backed out in the last minute and my sudden attraction didn’t seem to fade away, I finally decided to proceed with my crush on Aditi.
The class had already started to spread rumors about me and Sana, and obviously this didn’t go down well with her. Sana is a person who always loves to be the leader in a relation, so she came to verbal tussle thinking that I won’t retaliate. But her calculation went amiss when she had to face my ire built up from the frustrations of the confused attraction, the dilemma to choose between a friend and his ex-to-be-proposed-girlfriend.
Sometimes the greatest war is often fought within you. And no matter what you do you end up losing. That’s what called a Catch 22 situation. There are certain decisions that when you make them seem to be the best one at the moment. However, in the long run they prove as a fatal mistake. My decision to profess my attraction to Aditi was one such grave mistake.
